As someone who has always struggled with anxiety and only started addressing it in recent years, mental health is something I have thought a lot about the last 2 years. I don’t know if Covid brought this awareness about or maybe it’s being in my 30’s, but last year I reached a breaking point with my own mental health. I got to the point where I knew I couldn’t do it on my own, and I needed to reach out to my doctor. This was a big step for me personally and it actually pushed me in my own faith as a Christian as well. I was able to reach out to my husband and family for support and used my faith to help deal with my anxiety, but my doctor gave me the final step I needed and this last piece of the puzzle helped me feel the most mentally stable I have in years.

Now, a year later from that low point, I am feeling anxious and stressed with work, BUT I am able to deal with this in a healthier way. Not only do I have medication that helps me stabilize, but I am able to mentally process things better as well! The last few weeks of my job have been some of the most stressful since I left teaching, and dealing with a tech industry job (though nice for working from home) has it’s own challenges and struggles.

I have struggled with not feeling good enough.

I have struggled with being a people pleaser and dealing with people not liking me.

I have struggled with a work/life balance as a manager.

I have struggled with navigating dealing with other people’s opinions.

I have struggled with the stress and frustration of feeling like I am not heard.

Through all these struggles and the stress and tears of the last few weeks, I never fell into that pit from last year and the hole of anxiety. I am able to manage it in a healthier way. I take that time when I need it. I am able to notice that I am burning myself out and take a step back. Furthermore, my husband has reminded me time and time again that it’s just a job. It’s not the be all end all, and at the end of the day our little family matters, not what the people at my job think of me.

Though I can feel myself burning out, I have been able to take my foot off the gas and step back. I spent the majority of my weekend sleeping and relaxing with as little time spent thinking or doing work things as possible.

I just want to say, if you are struggling with your job right now, you’re not alone. I feel your pain. I know it’s hard, and if you are a people pleasing, anxious, ADHD, Type 6 person, I feel you. I get it, it’s hard and sometimes everything feels personal. Everything feels chaotic. But you know what? It’s gonna be okay and “this too shall pass.”

Sending you all the hugs as you start a new week and remember to take time for yourself!